If you know me or have been reading my blog, you will know we’ve had some very bad news recently. After weeks of investigations for symptoms doctors presumed were caused by my husband Roger’s previous health problems, he was diagnosed with bowel cancer and it appeared to have spread to his lungs.
We were holding out for hope of treatment, just something that would be a chance of saving him and getting him through yet another horrendous episode in our lives. But just over a week ago, we were told there is nothing that can be done to remove the cancer. Our focus now should be on managing symptoms, making Roger comfortable and making the most of every single minute we have left together. How long that will be nobody knows, and it’s just impossible to put into words the devastation we have both felt since we found out. My husband, my most favourite person on the world, is coming to the end of his life and it feels like my life is coming to an end too. Our happy little bubble, the life we’ve made together, now has an end in sight and every time my mind races on I just can’t accept what we’ve been told is the inevitable. We’ve always been so happy, we rarely argue, understand each other so well and like most couples, counted on being there for one another for years to come.
We even sit next to each other at work and still haven’t got sick of the sight of one another! How can this be happening to us, why not someone else, somewhere else, many years down the line? We’ve only just started our family life, how can it be coming to an end so bloody soon?
We’ve already had two years of ups and downs since Roger, who previously seemed so healthy, vibrant and fit, collapsed at home and was taken into intensive care. He was diagnosed with a rare genetic disorder called Jak2, which had led to the onset of a blood cancer called Essential Thrombocythaemia. This had caused his blood to clot, and one of those clots had blocked and killed off part of his small bowel. The other was lodged in his portal vein, next to the liver, and could not be moved. He came through all that, managing to cope with so much, two years of illness, discomfort, sadness and worry. But now somehow, for some reason, a tumour has grown in his bowel and it’s not going away. He’s too high risk for surgery, and even if that were possible, apparently one dose of chemo could be fatal.
I’ve been struggling to find the words all week, but all I’ve been able to do is cry. I’ve cried so much it’s felt at times like it would never stop, but being a mum means it has to stop sometimes so I’m able to look after the kids. They don’t want to see me sad, crying over breakfast, through dinner and while they’re in the bath. What’s wrong? My eldest has asked. I just love your daddy and want him home, I tell him. It breaks my heart even to write these words down, it all seems so much more real when it’s out of my head.
I’ve been living on fresh air, then chocolate, birthday cake and wine. I’ve had some wonderful and thoughtful friends help out by allowing me the space I need and leaving me little offerings behind the plant pots by my front door. I’ve been dreading seeing people and having to explain what’s going on. It’s almost as if the longer it stays inside the easier it will be. But I’m thankful for the messages I’ve had from friends, and the love they are sending is always welcome.
I have put off writing this post, but Roger, my greatest cheerleader, has been encouraging me to, saying I can’t invite people on the journey and not take them on the ups and downs. I think he got this from Howard Stern…
Anyway, thanks for reading.
X Julia
87 Comments
Fiveadventurers
April 8, 2015 at 7:02 pmYou amazing, beautiful lady! This brought me to tears and my heart breaks for you both at this horrible time. I am so sorry that you are going through this and wish I could do or say something to ease your pain. So If nothing else we are sending lots of love, prayers and hugs from Lancashire. Much love x
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Rainbeaubelle
April 8, 2015 at 10:29 pmThank you lovely xxx
Rachel @ The Ordinary Lovely
April 8, 2015 at 7:06 pmOh my God, Julia. I’m so, so sorry. It’s just devastating. You are immensely brave for putting this in writing. It must have been horrendous finding the words. I’m only 45 mins away from you … if you ever need anything, you only have to shout. Even if it’s just to come and drag you out for a coffee for half an hour xx
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Rainbeaubelle
April 8, 2015 at 10:29 pmHi Rachel, thanks so much, that’s so kind of you xxx
Kiran
April 8, 2015 at 7:14 pmOh Julia. I am heartbroken for you and your family. I wish I knew what to say or do, or even that there was something to say. You are all in my thoughts and I am sending so much love. I can’t believe how unfair this is. Much much love xxx
Rainbeaubelle
April 8, 2015 at 11:12 pmThanks so much xx
Karen
April 8, 2015 at 7:24 pmDarling Julia, I am sending you so much love. You are such a strong, brave woman – even if it doesn’t feel like it right now. Hope you create some lovely memories together over the next weeks and months – even when it is incredibly tough to do so. There are so many people ready to give you what ever help and support, whenever you are ready for it. Love you x
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CoconutandBloom
April 8, 2015 at 7:29 pmLook how brave and strong you are to write so honestly and open about what you’re going through ! My heart goes out to you and your family, sending love and strength your way x
Steph
April 8, 2015 at 7:34 pmJulia I am so dreadfully sorry for you and Roger what has been placed before you and your percious family. There are no words and I very much admire your courage and strength, which must feel alien in the circumstances, but you definitely show in huge amounts.
All you can do is love and accept the love shown to you I guess x. It will always be there whatever time brings. I hope that will be a great comfort for you all whenever you need it – even from someone you’ve never met.
Sending armfuls of love and warmest thoughts.
Steph xxxx
Nat Jones
April 8, 2015 at 7:36 pmI’ve only just started following your blog but I read this with tears in my eyes! I know words can’t take the pain away and you don’t know me from Adam but sending you love and hugs from Lincolnshire xx
Rainbeaubelle
April 11, 2015 at 5:41 amThank you xx
Shannon Kyle
April 8, 2015 at 7:37 pmJules, there’s no words to say what I want to say. Life can be so cruel and so unfair, there seems to be no justice. What you have written so poignantly shows such strength at such an horrific time. Where ever there is life there is hope. And I hope the deep love you have for each other and your children can somehow make it all a tiny bit more bearable. Lots of love Shannon x x x
Rainbeaubelle
April 8, 2015 at 11:13 pmThanks Shannon xx
Tracy Newton
April 8, 2015 at 7:42 pmI am a stranger, looking sadly in from the outside. Please make memory boxes for your children, write them letters for milestones in their lives, 18th and 21st birthdays, weddings, pregnancy, birth of first child etc. Please also record his voice. It was the first memory to go for me.
Xxxxxx
Notmyyearoff
April 8, 2015 at 7:42 pmI’m so so sorry that you’re both going through this and this post has made me cry. You sound so perfect together and I truly hope that time together stretches far and long into the future yet. I can’t begin to imagine what you are going through but I just wanted to say I’m thinking of you xx
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everything mummy
April 8, 2015 at 7:42 pmI’m so sorry for all your going though julia your such a lovely lady sending loads of love to you all xx
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Colette B
April 8, 2015 at 7:43 pmOh god. I have literally held my breath as I was reading this. I don’t even know what to say. I’m so so sorry.
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Rainbeaubelle
April 8, 2015 at 10:29 pmThank you xxx
Paul Cockerton
April 8, 2015 at 7:44 pmSo sorry to be reading this – thoughts with you all.
You Baby Me Mummy
April 8, 2015 at 7:47 pmOh huni, you are incredible. I wish I could do or say something to help, but there is nothing I can say. You have all my love and I wish you and Rog as many happy memories as possible. Lots of love xxx
sarah christie
April 8, 2015 at 7:48 pmOh Julia my heart aches for you all, I wish I could do or say something that helps. Any thing you need just call, i will have you all in my thoughts and prayers xx
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Sarah Doyle - let them be small
April 8, 2015 at 7:49 pmthere are no words xxx
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Harriet
April 8, 2015 at 7:50 pmReading this brought tears to my eyes. I can’t imagine what you and your family are going through. I am so sorry to read this. Sending you love & strength xx
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Rainbeaubelle
April 11, 2015 at 5:40 amThank you xx
Vicki
April 8, 2015 at 7:52 pmJulia, I just don’t understand how life can be so cruel. I am utterly devastated for you & think you deserve a medal for being upright on two feet & making it through this past week. I’m so so sorry for you & Roger and just don’t know how I can convey how so sorry I am for you. I wish there was something I could do to lessen your pain or help Roger. My heart goes out to you xxxx
Rainbeaubelle
April 11, 2015 at 5:40 amThank you xxx
Kat | Beau Twins
April 8, 2015 at 7:54 pmI adore your relationship with Rog, it’s a very special one indeed. I love the fact you love each other so much. You can clearly tell from his encouragement that he loves you dearly. I know love won’t cure this, I know love won’t change it, but the love you have for each other will get you through this. I can’t imagine or begin to imagine the pain you are going through. You do what you have to do my lovely one, we are all here for you. Space and time and even when you want a really crap joke. Did you like my joke from last night? You can tell I have the mind of a 10 year old right? Love you dearly gorgeous lady. We are right here. Xxxx
Rainbeaubelle
April 11, 2015 at 5:40 amThanks Kat xxx keep the jokes coming lovely!! Xx
Kimmy
April 8, 2015 at 8:01 pmJulia, I am so so sorry to hear this.
I feel like I can’t even offer the right words to say because I can’t imagine how hard it must feel. My heart breaks for you. You are being so incredibly strong and I hope that you, roger and the children enjoy every waking minute together and that time stretches out for as long as possible for you all. Lots of love. Kimmy x
Sophie @ Mum, M & More
April 8, 2015 at 8:03 pmYou are so brave, and I’m so sorry. Thoughts are prayers are with you and your family x
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LittleOandMe
April 8, 2015 at 8:04 pmI’m so so sorry this is happening to you and your wonderful family. I have been reading your blog for a while now and the love between you and Roger shines through in your writing. Your so bloody brave sharing your story and I’m sending all my love to you and your family. Life really is so shitty sometimes!
Becky xxx
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Isabella @ Fairies & Pirates
April 8, 2015 at 8:07 pmThere are no words for what you’re going through; I am so moved by your post. I wish you and your husband and family the strength to face the challenge ahead and to make the most of the time you have together. x
Mrs H
April 8, 2015 at 8:08 pmDarling Julia, you are so brave and wonderful for writing this post. I know that writing those words must have torn your heart apart. I can’t imagine how you are feeling. It seems so unfair. So unjust. So cruel. I wish I was a fairy godmother and I could wave a magic wand and make everything better. But life isn’t that easy. I want to be able to give you a massive cuddle and let you cry on my shoulder. It is all so tragic. Please know that I am here for you and I am sending you all the love in the world. If only love were enough! The biggest hugs anyone could give Lucy xxxx
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Hayley (@hayleyfromhome)
April 8, 2015 at 8:22 pmJulia, I so desperately wish I could write something to make this better, or do something to help. I am so incredibly sorry that this is happening to you and Roger, it doesn’t seem right or fair and I think you are both amazing! I hope it has helped to write this down, you are doing so well lovely through all of this, I can’t even imagine how difficult it is. Words never seem enough sending so much love xxxx
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Misunderstood Mummy
April 8, 2015 at 8:34 pmI am so sorry this is happening to you both, life can be so awfully unfair sometimes. I wish there was something I could do or say to make you feel even the slightest bit better, but I know there isn’t, I cannot even begin to imagine how u are both feeling. You are both amazingly brave xxxx
Katy {What Katy Said}
April 8, 2015 at 8:45 pmThere are just no words. It is all so unfair and cruel. I wish there was more we could all do for you but just know we are there, always xxxxx
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Alex
April 8, 2015 at 8:52 pmI have been trying to write this comment for about 5 minutes… Writing…deleting… Writing again. There’s nothing I can say to change things, but please know I am thinking of you all in this difficult time and send you lots of love. Alex x
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Mumma McD
April 8, 2015 at 8:57 pmOh lovey, this is just devastating to read. What a brave woman you are, and an amazing man Roger is. Do what you need to do, and remember, just breathe xx
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Rainbeaubelle
April 11, 2015 at 5:39 amThank you xx
Anne
April 8, 2015 at 9:02 pmI don’t know you but I think you are incredibly brave to post this and open up your heart this way. Soak up all the love and support that comes your way. Sadly you are not alone, I already have two friends who have been through similar, it’s a tough journey, it’s a tough world and nobody deserves it, ever. I have no magic wand, I have no magic words but be assured that I, like many others will be thinking of you and your family and sending you love and strength by the bucket load xx
Rainbeaubelle
April 8, 2015 at 10:28 pmThank you so much xx
Lyndy
April 8, 2015 at 9:04 pmJulia…my heart goes out to you it really does….im so sorry. You and your beautiful family are in my thoughts and prayers…stay strong…easier said than done.much love Lyndy(we met at sensory baby im.carolines sister) Luciana and family.xxxx
Deb Troops
April 8, 2015 at 9:48 pmJulia I don’t know what to say and sorry isn’t near enough. You’ve been in my prayers and all of you will stay right there. Every day now is as precious as the ones before this terrible thing happened to you. I know you have lots of support but I just wanted to add myself to the list. Take care and don’t be too brave to need someone to have a shout at. In my darkest hour I found utility companies were a great punchbag. Keep writing, Rog is right and remember we’re all here. Going nowhere x
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Cath
April 8, 2015 at 9:53 pmYou and Rog and S and F have been in mine (and all Bid’s sisters’) thoughts this week since she told us. Can’t even believe it can be happening. No idea how to even try and console you, but your writing is touching many and you and R have created two beauties. Even though you must be feeling beyond desperate, your words will be comfort for R, knowing how loved he is and S and F are lucky having parents who love each other so much. I’ll be doubling up the Jolleys’ bedtime prayers going for you all. Cath.xxx
Rainbeaubelle
April 8, 2015 at 10:24 pmThanks Cath, yes keep those prayers going please we always need them! Lots of love xxx
Lisa@intotheglade
April 8, 2015 at 9:55 pmJulia, I have had to come back to write my comment not because I have anything special to say but because everything seems so wrong and there just are not the words. Sometimes it easier to shout at someone you don’t know because they have no expectations, my offer stands forever! You are all never far from our whole family’s thoughts and prayers. Lots of love and hugs Lisa xxxxxx
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Rainbeaubelle
April 8, 2015 at 10:23 pmThanks so much, you are fab xxx
Sally wheatman
April 8, 2015 at 9:56 pmJulia, it’s heart-breaking to read your news. I can only imagine what you’re all going through. I’m so sorry xx
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Rainbeaubelle
April 8, 2015 at 10:23 pmThanks Sally xx
Nicki W
April 8, 2015 at 10:20 pmDear Julia
I’m a friend of your lively and lovely sis Katie so don’t know you, but having read this tonight I want to reach out and offer you my love, prayers and complete admiration for your braveness and honesty. What a truly horrendous situation, I really can only imagine how you all feel and no words I have can do justice to the injustice you are suffering. The obvious true love between your husband and you is a blessing on the world, the children of your loving relationship will bring more of that purity to the planet, and have faith that your strength in admitting your utter devestation will somehow help you and your family keep all that is good about you. My thoughts and love are with you all now and always. Xxxxxx
Rainbeaubelle
April 8, 2015 at 10:23 pmThank you xx
Amy
April 8, 2015 at 11:52 pmOh Julia, I’m struggling to know what to say other than to offer my love, support and prayers to you and your family. I am so so sorry my love. I can’t imagine what you’re going through and as Kat says we are all right here with you darling. If you ever need to talk to someone then please don’t hesitate I am always up until the early hours and would be right here if you need someone.
I’m thinking of you, your family and sending you strength, prayers and so much love. xxxx
Kirsten Toyne
April 9, 2015 at 5:29 amThis is my first visit to your site as I am new to the scene. I have just read your post and felt compelled to leave a message. I find myself really wanting to say something that will help but I know that no words can change anything. I am so sorry that you are having to face this. Even though we don’t know each other, I am thinking of you and your family at this awful time and wishing you all the support you need.
Rainbeaubelle
April 11, 2015 at 5:38 amThank you xx
Eve Hughes
April 9, 2015 at 7:31 amDear Julia, by the power of Facebook I stumbled across your blog last night (we have mutual friends but again like others who have commented, I don’t know you personally). You have been on my mind since I read your blog and I just felt compelled to write. I feel such sadness that such a lovely, so in love, couple could be facing this with your two beautiful children but from the comments of the people who know you well I can see that you have something incredibly special and I will pray for you and hope that you get as much time to make memories with your lovely family. You have so many people touched by your story rooting for you and willing your lovely husband strength. I’m just a local Mum too but I wish and pray all that is good for you and your family. Lots of love, Eve x x
Rainbeaubelle
April 11, 2015 at 5:38 amThank you so much for your comment and for thinking of us xx
Vickie
April 9, 2015 at 8:15 amOh it breaks my heart to read this Julia. I am so very sorry for you, Rog and your family. I know that nothing can make this time any easier for you but I just wanted to let you know that you’re all in my thoughts. Vx
Lynette
April 9, 2015 at 10:59 amOh babe I don’t know how you found the strength to write that. My heart is breaking for you all. It is so, so cruel. I just wish there was something I could do. If there is anything I can do don’t hestitate to let me know. Sending you and Roger all my love, Lynette xxx
Tim
April 9, 2015 at 12:38 pmJulia, I’m so sad to hear it’s come to this, having followed the ups and downs over the last few months. I can’t offer any words of comfort other than to say that you’re in my thoughts and I hope you and Roger make the absolute most out of the time you have together.
Alison Cockburn
April 9, 2015 at 5:55 pmSo sorry to hear your sad news Julia. I cannot imagine how you are feeling only that with a young family myself how devastated you must be. i hope you can see through the tears and enjoy the time you have left together.
wishing all the family love and kind wishes.
ali cockburn
Caroline slinger
April 9, 2015 at 9:11 pmOh Julia, this is just so unfair and awful for you all. Sending you Love and strength and hugs…
Rainbeaubelle
April 11, 2015 at 5:39 amThanks Caroline xx
ash
April 9, 2015 at 9:46 pmMy heart goes out to you….A brave young lady in many ways…but braver than most to share your emotions with the world. You should be proud that you are encouraging people to discuss the end death with the dignity it.. your husband and your family deserve.
You will be travelling a painful path and I dearly hope you find solace strength and love and support in all those around you who love and you and cherish.
Live in the here and now..cherish the present try not to predict the what ifs….be honest tell people your are having a bad day…never use the word fine…and never explain why you feel the way you do…people will understand.
Ask for help and grab everything with both hands. .lots of love support and positivity to you all xxxx
Heledd @heleddlavender
April 10, 2015 at 1:03 amJulia this has to be the bravest, most powerful thing I’ve ever read. Beyond the incredible sadness is a love and a bond that doesn’t happen every day. Your love story is so very special, I hope that in some way it’s power can help you through this awful time. As many have already said, I wish I had the words to make you feel even the slightest bit better but in reality there are none. Kling on to your man for as long as you can, make memories, talk, take pictures, record his voice, even make videos if he’s up to it. Sending you and your family all my love and please know that I think of you daily xxx
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Rainbeaubelle
April 11, 2015 at 5:37 amThanks Heledd, I know you are thinking of us too, thank you so much xxx
Heledd @heleddlavender
April 10, 2015 at 1:06 am*Cling on… (how did that happen?) xx
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Beth Twinderelmo
April 10, 2015 at 7:15 amYou will probably read these words then click off the screen. My words don’t stay with you. They may help temporarily or make you smile but when you are living it – fleeting moments of distraction are welcome.
We were told the same thing last year. 17th February to be precise. I couldn’t fully process what was being said to me. She was always full of life – fit and healthy and her walking capacity put me to shame. I hid my pain and tears from her, my kids and husband because I felt compelled to appear brave in the face of adversity.
I wish I could say something just SOMETHING that may change, ease or aid you all but I can’t. I won’t patronise with advice either but what I will say it – write all you want. Good, bad, angry, so heartbreakingly sad. I’m not going anywhere and writing is often easier than talking and trying to convey the bubbling storm in your head.
I hope that following the worst week of your life you will make some of your most precious treasured memories in the months to come xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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Rainbeaubelle
April 11, 2015 at 5:36 amThanks so much Beth, I’m just so sorry you have already experienced this with your mum, thank you for your kind words xx
Lindsay @ Newcastle Family Life
April 10, 2015 at 9:14 pmOh i am so sorry to read this. I have no words and have no idea of what you are going through. I truly hope that you get to spend time as a family making memories you can treasure forever. xx
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My Life As A Mummy
April 11, 2015 at 3:07 pmOh Julia, I am so so sorry to hear your terrible news! Whilst I can not say anything to make you feel better, I am sending you so much love at the moment! We are all here for you!
<3
Laura x x x
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Rainbeaubelle
April 12, 2015 at 10:20 pmThanks Laura xxx
Rachel
April 11, 2015 at 9:06 pmJulia I’m so very sad to read this. I’ve only been following your blog a short while but I was desperately hoping it would be better news than this. You probably won’t remember but when I had literally just started my little blog you made me feel welcome into the community with a little #ff message. I don’t know you outside of this online interaction but have been touched by your writing and thoughtfulness. You obviously have very many friends who care so much for you and your family. I also have no doubt that this amazing community of people you might only know online will also want to be there for your regardless of what you do with your blog at this difficult time. Write if you want, especially if it helps. But do it for you and don’t worry about your readers. I wish there was something I could do or say that could help but my words are fairly pointless. You and yiur family will be in my thoughts and prayers. Sending you love and kindness. Rachel.
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Rainbeaubelle
April 12, 2015 at 10:21 pmRachel, thank you so much for your kind words and thoughts. Of course I remember you and the #ff! That’s made me smile! Thank you xx
Imogen
April 12, 2015 at 12:13 amLike I said before, I just don’t know why life has to be such a barbaric shit to such wonderful people. I am glad that you two found each other, though your happiness together must make this all the harder to bear. I am raging for you all. You and Rog are a lovely couple and I’m so sad for you both. Xxxxxxx
Rainbeaubelle
April 12, 2015 at 10:22 pmThanks Immy xxx
Elizabeth (Wander Mum)
April 12, 2015 at 8:46 amOh Julia, I am in tears reading this. It’s unbelieveable. You are so brave and strong for being able to write this all down. What an amazing man Roger is for encouraging you like that. He’s a special person. Life is so cruel. Make the most of this time together. Focus on the present and being with him. You are an amazing woman. My heart and thoughts go out to you and your family. xxx
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Rainbeaubelle
April 12, 2015 at 10:22 pmThank you so much xx
Sarah P
April 13, 2015 at 1:58 amI am so so sorry, hun. My thoughts go out to you and your family. xxx
Ian Herbert
April 14, 2015 at 1:04 pmJulia, we’ve not met but Roger and I worked together years ago on the Daily Post. It was such a great time. We were all still quite young back then and beginning to get some responsibility for producing the paper together. I left the paper in ’99 and have been at the Indy ever since but it was the best time in newspapers for me, such a great group of people with ideas and enthusiasm and Roger a brilliant driving force, passionate about the paper and generating great stories and, I especially remember, so great and patient with younger reporters coming through. Desperately sorry to read your news and will certainly add my prayers to the many others on here that things can turn around for you all. Send Rog my love and if he feels up to, and would like, a bit of emailing back and to, then just tell me where I can write to him. Thanks for writing. It’s a special blog you write. Love to you all, Ian xx
Rainbeaubelle
April 14, 2015 at 3:45 pmThanks Ian, that is such a lovely comment and you are spot on about Rog. He would love to hear from you, I’ll forward you his email address and pass yours to him. X Julia
Brighton Mama @ Our Seaside Baby
April 17, 2015 at 8:41 pmSo sorry to read this. It must be an incredibly difficult time and will be thinking about you all xx
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Lisa (mummascribbles)
April 18, 2015 at 5:08 pmOh Julia, I don’t know where I’ve been but I have only just seen this dreadful news. I am so sorry and I know that no words can make this any better. I know that hearing those words from the doctors are just the worst (I’ve heard them). I am so sorry that this is happening to your truly beautiful family. Enjoy every moment you have left together, make memories that will live with you forever. Sending you all so much love lady, I am thinking of you all xxxx
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Amber
April 18, 2015 at 5:14 pmI’ve been reading your blog with tears streaming down my face. You brave lady, you’re writing from an awful place, from my worst nightmare, and I’m just in awe of the grace and strength with which you’re sharing your story. I hope so much that Roger astonishes the doctors with his resilience and longevity and that you have much, much more time with your best friend. You are all in my thoughts.
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Adventures of a Novice Mum
April 20, 2015 at 7:11 pmO my word! How terribly sad. So so sorry. Words elude me. How does one comfort and soothe a pain so deep? I feel for you … my heart goes out to you … I was really hoping it wouldn’t be so final. My word, your husband is quite a chap; encouraging you to keep on blogging through this really horrible down – what a tiny reflection of the incredible support he has been to you over the years. You’re in my thoughts and prayers.
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May 29, 2015 at 11:11 amOh my goodness, I am reading this with tears in my eyes, your photo just popped into my IG feed and I realised I hadn’t seen your terrible news. I can’t believe it. You lady are one of the bravest people I know. Sending you so much love. xxxxxxxxxx
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Rainbeaubelle
May 29, 2015 at 11:56 amThank you so much Lucy, I really do appreciate that, lots of love back to you x
Potty Mouthed Mummy
June 26, 2015 at 6:54 pmI have come into your story later than some, I almost feel like perhaps I shouldn’t comment. But I want to. To say I’m so sorry. To say your marriage and your husband sound wonderful and that your writing is eloquent and beautiful during a time few of us would dare to imagine. Much love to you all xxx
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