Coming home


If you read my posts from a few weeks ago you’ll know I’ve been spending a lot of time in hospital recently. My husband Roger was taken into intensive care and then spent a few weeks on a ward while the doctors tried to work out what had happened to him.

Well I’m happy to say things have moved on, and the good news is that he’s back home in the comfort of his own surroundings. The bad news, and it seems there is always bad news, is that he doesn’t seem to be that much better and we still don’t know what caused him to become so poorly in the first place. The reality is we might not ever find out.

I can’t tell you how many times I’ve told the story, but I’m starting to feel a little bit more worried each time I do. I wish I had some answers, but I don’t.

It goes a little bit like this. “So do they know what happened?” No.

“Was it all related to the last time he was taken into hospital?” We don’t know.

“But what if it happens again? Will he be ok?” I don’t know.

And this is the scary part. I think this time it’s really hit me how complicated this all is, and how sometimes there is no fix and you just have to live with it. Last summer, he was feeling so much stronger I started to feel like we could get back to some level of normality, but now I feel we’ve been set back such a long way and I can’t see a way out.

I’m trying to focus on thinking positively, thinking for today and trying to help him build his strength up again with milkshakes, cheese and homemade soup. Those chocolate puddings he was prescribed are still kicking around somewhere, but lemon drizzle cake tastes so much nicer!

Since he came home from hospital, he hasn’t improved and is still suffering with an upset stomach, which we presume is the after effects of contracting C. difficile in hospital. It just seems to be never ending. I’m fed up of hospitals, sickness and uncertainty. I’m just hoping that in the end we will get an answer and his health problems start to ease off enough for us to get on and put some of this behind us.

X Julia

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    Katy {What Katy Said}
    February 4, 2015 at 7:11 pm

    Oh Julia, at least he is home for now and hopefully being around all of you will help his recovery xx
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    sarah christie
    February 4, 2015 at 11:46 pm

    Ah I hope he starts to feel stronger soon. I bet something like that really takes it out of you xx
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    February 5, 2015 at 12:53 am

    Oh honey, I can tell that this is weighing heavily on your mind – understandably! The main thing to focus on right now is that Roger is home where he belongs. Help him back to health and enjoy life as much as you can. Easier said than done I know, you’re being so brave and strong! Carry on the good work. You’re a true superwoman xxx
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    Kat | Beau Twins
    February 6, 2015 at 9:33 am

    You are doing incredibly well darling! So glad he is home and I know this is easier said than done but reach out for some help! PLEASE hun!! you need to rest! xxxx
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    February 6, 2015 at 10:34 am

    I am so glad to hear that he’s home again, what a terrible state of limbo you’re in though. I do hope you get some answers soon and that Roger continues to improve. Oh and I echo Kat’s comment, please remember to look after yourself too! Vx
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    Jade [Raising the Rings]
    March 25, 2015 at 3:04 pm

    You are being so strong. I’m glad that your husband is home and I hope he starts getting his strength up soon. There’s nothing like the comfort of your own home to make you feel that little bit better. My thoughts are with you and your family xxx
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      March 25, 2015 at 10:33 pm

      Thanks Jade. This is actually a old post so he’s not home sadly but hoping he will be back soon! Xx

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