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  • Balloons on the moor for Roger
    Family, Loss

    Birthday balloons for daddy

    It has become tradition now that on special dates we let balloons go up in the sky in memory of Roger. I can’t say it’s on days when we want to…

  • Daffodils - Rainbeaubelle

    Those dates again | Happy Anniversary to me!

    Milestone dates. Don’t you just love them? When they are reminders of things to celebrate they’re great, but when they’re hanging around reminding you of something you’ve lost, not so great.…

  • Shredded paper in my office

    Continuing the life detox and declutter

    One of the things I wasn’t prepared for when Roger died was the masses of paperwork that needed doing in the weeks that followed. At a time when your mind goes…

  • Roger in France

    Reminders and 18 months gone

    I was reminded this morning, thanks to Facebook and those little notifications that tell you what you posted on this day in the past, that it’s been two years to the…

  • Flo sitting in leaves

    My little girl’s grief: ‘I miss daddy’

    ‘I miss daddy’, ‘I want daddy’ and ‘where’s daddy?’ are things I hear every single day from my little girl. When my husband died, my concern for how our children would…

  • Portrait - May
    Loss, Me and Mine

    A Year of Family Portraits

    Our first Me and Mine photo – May 2015 Last May, on the first weekend when Roger was well enough to come home from the hospice, we had some family photographs…

  • Father's Day gnome
    Family, Loss

    Father’s Day without a dad

    As it’s coming up to a year since Roger passed away there have already been many milestones without him. First holiday, first Christmas, first birthdays, first wedding anniversary – but something…

  • Superlambanana
    Family, Loss

    Life’s changes and moving house

    When I’m not writing about the bigger issues, like getting things out of my system or wondering where this thing called life is going (I’ve been listening to a lot of…

  • Nine months flatly

    Nine months and still going

    It’s nine months now since I lost my husband, Roger, to cancer. I can’t say the pain of loss is getting any easier, but I do feel like I can cope…