Losing My Dad

Dad wedding

Now here is a chapter that I never thought I would write so soon. Earlier this month, on 4 September 2018, my dad died. It was sudden. His health had been deteriorating over the past few years, he had parkinson’s disease and had some heart issues, but none of us thought he would go so bloody soon. On the Friday, he was at home fixing a problem with the phones, on Saturday he saw the doctor, on Sunday he was…

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