I love putting the Me and Mine posts together because it’s a way of making sure we have a family portrait for each month of the year. Already I have seven months covered, the first ones included Roger of course, who we all love and miss so much, and never a day goes by without us all talking about him and me usually shedding a tear or two while we do. As time goes on, I can’t say I’ve felt things get easier. I think I can say I am getting more used to the situation, but I definitely can’t say it feels ok in any way.
This month, I think I’ve probably cried every single day and had some really memorably bad days, like the one last week where I ended up in tears on the train home from work on my own, feeling like I wanted to just be transported home, with no kids to pick up, where I could hide under the covers for as long as I needed to. This didn’t happen of course, and I managed to get it together enough to collect Sam and Flo and go home and carry on as normal.
I think the fact that we’re getting near to Christmas isn’t helping, but my plan to get by is just by focusing on it being a time for the kids and trying to make it magical for them. It’s been a truly awful year for all of us and the least I can do for our children is to try to make this Christmas a happy time.
Anyway, this is taking a different direction to how I’d planned so I’ll get back to telling you about our month. Despite my sadness I’ve been planning lots of things to do throughout the month – another coping strategy and so I’ve had some really lovely meet ups with family and friends. I met my sister in Liverpool to celebrate her birthday, went to my first blogging conference with my brilliant blog buddies, and this weekend we’ve been out to Eureka museum in Halifax, to meet Father Christmas and have a little explore. That’s where the Christmas tree photos were taken, and we had such a good time Sam is already talking about his next visit. That’s also where the photo was taken of Sam with a party hat on his face, which I had to use as it really does capture both my little ones how they really are!
The rest of the photos were taken in our kitchen on my phone, as I’ve had a bit of a camera malfunction and my Nikon has been out of action for a few weeks. Sam and Flo bought me a little tripod grip for my phone (perfect blogger gift) when I was in London last weekend, and we were trying it out with some family selfies. Which we are pretty rubbish at, incidentally!
So that was our November – can you believe the next time I write a Me and Mine post it will be New Year’s Eve and the last day of the year?
Take a look at our post from October here.
This post is linked up with the Me and Mine project – hosted by Dear Beautiful, Bump to Baby, Capture By Lucy, Let’s Talk Mommy, Mummy Daddy Me and Tigerlilly Quinn – where you take a photograph a month of your family all together.