It’s the end of another month and time for our Me and Mine family portrait. I still can’t actually believe there are only three of us in our family photo now, what has happened in the past few months doesn’t even seem real some days.
I can’t actually believe I’m writing that Roger is no longer with us but sadly it’s true. August has been a month of sadness, tears, adjustments and on the day of the funeral, I guess a little bit of celebration. It was a day I was dreading but by the end of it I felt buoyed by having all our family and close friends share the day with us, and reflective on what a wonderful man Roger was and what a fantastic time we had together.
This month has been an intensely emotional one and as it’s also the school holidays it has been a difficult task trying to balance that with looking after Sam and Florence and dealing with all the admin that needs to be done when somebody dies. Although Rog and I had time to talk about it a lot and sort a few things out, I was still totally unprepared for just how much work there is to do to wind up an estate. I thought by transferring a few of the bills into my name I had done most of the work, but how wrong I was. Still, I’m getting through it bit by bit and feel the load get lighter each time I tick one more thing off my to do list.
So August has seen us get through the funeral, take a holiday with friends, and thanks to my parents I was able to spend a few days on my own to rest, think things through (and do more admin!). I’ve taken a few steps towards looking after myself again, and tried to be kind to myself and get some of my energy back.
There have been lots of tears, lots of wine, a lot of help from those close to me and probably not enough sleep. I have come through August feeling tired, battered and pretty sad, but I’ve got through it and am looking forward to starting September and getting back into some sort of routine. I don’t think it’s just the kids who benefit from that – I love having a break from the school run but do enjoy the start of the new term too. I’ve always quite liked Autumn and the thought of new beginnings and renewal.
There are a few things to look forward to in September – one of them being the MAD Blog Awards in London where I get to spend a night away with some of my best blogging buddies, meet some of my blog crushes and meet some new ones. I’m up for the Blog of the Year and Best Writer awards and although I am not at all expecting to walk away with a win, I just can’t wait to see everyone and experience what will actually be my first blogging event.
So, here are our Me and Mine pictures for August, taken by a friend while we were out on a mass frozen yogurt and scooting expedition yesterday. They are the third set of pictures I took for this project but the only ones where we all look passable!
This post is linked up with the Me and Mine project – hosted by Dear Beautiful, Bump to Baby, Capture By Lucy, Let’s Talk Mommy, Mummy Daddy Me and Tigerlilly Quinn – where you take a photograph a month of your family all together.
If you like, you can have a look and our portrait for July here.